upon introspection...

i think i like beginnings a little too much... that's where all the excitement is, all the potential. before we have to start choosing between this, or that, starting down one path at the exclusion of another. middles are okay, 'cause you're in the thick of it all, but endings.... endings always get me, because that's where one can see just where one has ended up; you can take a look back and see how you got to where you are, and how you could have chosen differently here or there... there always seems to be a brighter path to have taken. granted, there often times are quite a few darker, rockier paths as well... but beginnings... i tell ya... i think i live off them. and thus we end up here, a new year just starting to unfurl. a new job. a few new goals ( which are really old goals that got forgotten about, pushed to the back of the shelf where they've collected dust and tarnish, but i'm busy polishing them up like new again! oh yes i am!) and a new determination. i am going to do grand things! not just someday, but everyday! why can't i be doing grand things now? or at least be working on them. because, really, i've plum run out of excuses. When it comes to this game called life, i have somehow managed to collect the world's biggest, baddest, most fantastic dream-team of players who got my back! and i got theirs, and it's the most fantastic feeling in the world! am i on uppers again? maybe... but this is for damn sure! we are gonna kick some ass!