it's not the big C!

but it's not, not the big c.... so I still get to go see a surgeon sometime soon. probably. Will this interfere with my new tattoo plans? anyways, i had no idea how much I was actually stressing out about this. the good news is, i get to see a plastic surgeon on government dime, and also eat some hospital pudding! can't wait! So I'm okay! i mean, at least physically. I'm not sure I'll ever be super okay mentally, because I like to torture myself too much.