Monday, May 16, 2011

Thursday, May 12, 2011

alley cats at night

i'm an alley cat. This makes it hard for relationships, because i am prone to wander. It's not about wanting to have relationships or sex with a bunch of people, i'm not that kind of person, and probably couldn't manage the juggling act even if I was.

No it's about space. I need space. Space to wonder. To let my mind breathe. To do random things that I'm afraid will make me look crazy to the rest of the world. To scrape off the 10 million thoughts that get stuck to the insides of my skull. To find a glittery ribbon floating in the wind and follow it down the road for a while, and then realize suddenly I just drove to vegas. that kind of space. It's a rare person who can appreciate this quality, or at least, if not appreciate it, accept it.

See for most people, it's not enough to just put a saucer of milk on the back step. Ally cats crave affection as much as any other, it's just that they will only accept it on their own terms. They need to remain independent, or at least need to hold onto the illusion of independence. People need to draw boxes around everything. to define things. But defining things so often puts them in cages, and I can assure you the best things in life wither and die when put in cages.